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Silly me, forgot why we don't really trust mental health workers,and confessed a lot of stuff to our schools mental health specialist.
Only helpful things that came out of it were:
-Paperwork
-New anxiety calming technique?

The paperwork is a therapy thing. Apparently the school offers 5-6 sessions of free therapy for students, which you have to be eligible for, but still. She did this mostly in an attempt to make us get diagnosed with things.

However, she wasn't very pleasant talking about these things, especially OSDD. She also called our self-diagnosis of autism "inappropriate". After we explained why we've done that.
-autism in the family
-years of research
-we have a LOTTTTT of the symptoms and they SHOW
-we've done the RAADS-R(?) test like 3 times and every time its been just 20-30 points away from the highest possible scoring. I know the RAADS-R test isn't the most insanely credible diagnosis type thing, but we feel that its a good step in getting the whole "okay I do/don't need to care about this" sense around autism, y'know?

We explained/debunked a lot of the common misconceptions around OSDD/DID and she still persisted with them. She also asked what we've gotten our information and research from, which is fine, but when we tried explaining that they're from credible sources and NOT Google, she told me all about how "there's a difference between research from Google and research from real scientific texts".

Oh well. Sorry for the rant, its midterms time and Im just having a not so fun day I guess.

Just took our tests. Urghgfdbv. Okay honestly, they were really easy. The only thing was I started getting impatient on the math parts, and the wording was very strange for a lot of the questions. I swear reading it I registered some questions as like.. "If you put the 3x and 7y and the y-833x=600 of the y of the x-intercept what does x represent?"

Just very unclear wording. And so many numbers that I just caved and gave up and guessed. Somehow kept myself together during this test; surviving off of 14 wontons, off-brand Coke, and half a bottle of water.

We started our period yesterday and when we're on our period we get emotional. It seems to affect me the worst, especially when I'm unmedicated, which I kind of am today? With my medication, I take 2 pills every morning, 7:00 AM. I only took one. I don't know why; I just did. Our bus was late this morning too, and the substitute bus driver wasn't the best driver, and I got car-sick (or, bus-sick?)


Also, guess who's in our testing room! You guys have never heard about this before but I'll explain now.
This kid I'm going to call "9" for privacy purposes. Basically, over the summer our friend at the time who goes to a different school gave his friend (9) our phone number- without our permission, might i add- and 9 texted us. Long story short, this kid kind of creeps us out. They've sent us furry BDSM Tumblr memes/drawings without any warning or even asking if that's okay. They tried to debate with us on how inflation and vore are "better" than BDSM; both in a sexual context and in the sense that they're more normal and safe.
To be fair, we don't agree. I don't say that in reference to me nor my headmates' sex lives, but in the sense that these fetishes are more normal and safe. I'm not kinkshaming, if thats what you're into then so be it. Not my business. But hey, they aren't more normal- they don't actually exist and can't exist if you take actual logic into account. And they aren't exactly more safe either? Especially vore? But that doesn't matter. Back on topic.
9 also kinkshamed people who are interested in BDSM. And I will say, I am one of those people. And I think BDSM is a very okay thing as long as everything is consensual and agreed upon. Even then, why is it 9's business what people do/like? Why is it anyones business?
To sum up this dragged-on story; they made us so uncomfortable that we ghosted them, and then ended up blocking them because they wouldn't stop sending us weird things.
I don't know if they remember what we look like though, so maybe it'll be okay. Plus we have a different haircut, hair color, and we're wearing our bluelight glasses today which make our face look a bit different. I really hope they don't recognize us and even if they do I hope they don't acknowledge our existence.

So yeah. Sorry for ranting, but there's my morning so far. Also this is our page so if you don't like what we post fuck off /hj

-Dottore