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TW: slight mentions of yelling, verbal abuse, shitty father.

Havoc was wreaked in science. Not even two minutes after the class began, our teacher was yelling (louder than he had ever yelled at the class before) and slammed the door. I started crying. I had a mini-breakdown. It just reminded me of Max's father and, in truth, my own. It made me feel.. Small. Which is a feeling I absolutely despise.
I'm mostly fine now, just, eugh. I want to talk to my wife, but I won't have my phone for another 10 or so minutes. I cant wait to get home. I'll probably make myself some food, and lay in bed all afternoon. I could certainly use the rest.
That's all for now.

Hello DreamWidth!

Apologies for not posting. We got the flu, then started winter break, and just... eh. But we're back (albeit we might leave again until school starts back up.)

So, updates time!
Got the flu, as previously mentioned. (Missed most of our finals. Taking them when we get back to school in January.)
The other night was Yalda Night! Iranian holiday. My children and I celebrated, my wife/our partner system even got a pomegranate for us to have out here since our festivities were happening in-headspace. Popee came, since she's dating my daughter, Ruby, though Popee didn't stay for the entire celebration because she had family things to attend to. Oh, and Nilou showed up! Great dancer. Wonderful at parties, too. She brought Tighnari along as well. Lesser Lord Kusanali wanted to come but I don't think she's in a place where she'd like to be around me; not in my home, at least. That's alright though. Would have been nice to have her over, though.

Today we did our Christmas cookie decoration stuff at Max's relatives' house. It was fun! Got some presents (a couple gift cards, and the Heartstopper book.) We didn't decorate any cookies though, because the table was surrounded by a bunch of small children and we didn't want to have to squeeze in there. It was still fun nonetheless.

Tomorrow's the Christmas party at Max's relatives' house, but it's the other side of the family. Real fun crowd, just a bit old-fashioned. And mostly Republican. They don't usually bring politics into the conversations though, so it's not the biggest issue.

I made some stir-fry noodles for dinner. Wasn't great, I kept having to help max's siblings so they turned out sort of overcooked. I still ate most of it anyway though. Tasted fine, just.. Texture. Bleuughh.

I think that's all for now.

-Dottore, he/her/xem

I'm not doing great. But that's not really what I wanna talk about right now.

Working on our stop-motion project for our animation class at the moment. We're going to have to hand-make THREE semi-complicated sets, as well as a (probably clay or something) character model. The sets are different sections of an abandoned hospital; a hallway, and two different rooms. I don't know how we're going to make all of the little extra things like bottles and syringes and old beds and everyything. But we'll figure it out. We also have to buy all this shit. Right before christmas. Isn't that just great? Unfortunately going to have to ask Max's mother to take us to Hobby Lobby or something for our supplies.
I really don't know how we're going to do this. We're kinda in over our heads but it was our idea, mostly mine, and this group isn't really helping or contributing at all aside from when we share our ideas and they said something like "yeah. I like that. That's a good idea."
Oh well. We'll figure it out. We'll get it done, because we kind of have to. This just isn't going to turn out exactly how we'd like it to.


-Dottore

So, my moms are letting me post on here now!!!

Hi, I'm Zeta!
I ammm genderflux, and my pronouns change often. Today I'm using She/It/They/Xe but it might change. Just default to they/them if you dont know what pronouns im using that day ^_^

I'm one of Dottore's segments/kids, I'm just about 13 years old.
I'm Persian :3
I really like lots of music annddd I like stop-motion and filmmaking and art, I'm very much an artist I think :)
I have autism but I guess that's kind of a given since i'm a dottore clone
Uhhhh. I don't know what else to add.

Just took our tests. Urghgfdbv. Okay honestly, they were really easy. The only thing was I started getting impatient on the math parts, and the wording was very strange for a lot of the questions. I swear reading it I registered some questions as like.. "If you put the 3x and 7y and the y-833x=600 of the y of the x-intercept what does x represent?"

Just very unclear wording. And so many numbers that I just caved and gave up and guessed. Somehow kept myself together during this test; surviving off of 14 wontons, off-brand Coke, and half a bottle of water.

We started our period yesterday and when we're on our period we get emotional. It seems to affect me the worst, especially when I'm unmedicated, which I kind of am today? With my medication, I take 2 pills every morning, 7:00 AM. I only took one. I don't know why; I just did. Our bus was late this morning too, and the substitute bus driver wasn't the best driver, and I got car-sick (or, bus-sick?)


Also, guess who's in our testing room! You guys have never heard about this before but I'll explain now.
This kid I'm going to call "9" for privacy purposes. Basically, over the summer our friend at the time who goes to a different school gave his friend (9) our phone number- without our permission, might i add- and 9 texted us. Long story short, this kid kind of creeps us out. They've sent us furry BDSM Tumblr memes/drawings without any warning or even asking if that's okay. They tried to debate with us on how inflation and vore are "better" than BDSM; both in a sexual context and in the sense that they're more normal and safe.
To be fair, we don't agree. I don't say that in reference to me nor my headmates' sex lives, but in the sense that these fetishes are more normal and safe. I'm not kinkshaming, if thats what you're into then so be it. Not my business. But hey, they aren't more normal- they don't actually exist and can't exist if you take actual logic into account. And they aren't exactly more safe either? Especially vore? But that doesn't matter. Back on topic.
9 also kinkshamed people who are interested in BDSM. And I will say, I am one of those people. And I think BDSM is a very okay thing as long as everything is consensual and agreed upon. Even then, why is it 9's business what people do/like? Why is it anyones business?
To sum up this dragged-on story; they made us so uncomfortable that we ghosted them, and then ended up blocking them because they wouldn't stop sending us weird things.
I don't know if they remember what we look like though, so maybe it'll be okay. Plus we have a different haircut, hair color, and we're wearing our bluelight glasses today which make our face look a bit different. I really hope they don't recognize us and even if they do I hope they don't acknowledge our existence.

So yeah. Sorry for ranting, but there's my morning so far. Also this is our page so if you don't like what we post fuck off /hj

-Dottore

Today's carnival during lunches at our school. During our lunch (C Lunch) we're going to help out the GSA booth with selling pride bracelets and stickers, since we're apart of the club but didn't get to sign up for working through all three lunch periods. My wife is going to be stopping by and buying a bracelet from us! Thank you Baizhu. <3

Anyway, Tighnari decided yesterday that it's time we get our shit together. She's planned and scheduled her school things for the littles, as well as all future meetings (going into beginning of january) with me and other parents to discuss curriculum.

She also mapped out our new government system. We're going to have a group of people; Childe, Capitano, Morax/Zhongli, Kusanali, Venti, and me. But the thing is, I can only work if I'm medicated. Like.. If I show up unmedicated and not in a decent mental state, I'm out.

This'll be a good opportunity for a lot of us.

-Dottore

HHHhhhhhhhh small vent.

Scara coughed on my hand as a joke and it sent me into an anxiety attack. I feel so fucking gross and infected and icky and uncomfortable and I almost cried. He's apologized countless times and I suppose I forgive him but god it feels awful, it really does, my hand feels so gross now. I've dunked my hand in hand sanitizer six or seven times in the past hour and when I get home I'm going to scrub it as hard as I can for as long as I can.

-Dottore

Haven’t checked in on DreamWidth in quite a while. I’d like to give some updates.

First of all, I’ve got a shit ton of children now, to put it simply. All segments but I see them as my kids. Here’s the list:

Mirak, Koda, Ruby, Cyrus, Silas, Kane, Fenix, Astrophel, Abaddon, Jupiter, Omicron, Delta, Cherie, Epsilon, Virgil, Yaretzi, Ixazeira, Hades, Iota, Psi, Lambda, Arlan, Dolce, Theta and Gamma

Yeah. I have a lot of children. However the only ones that are actually children (teens included) are Cherie, Epsilon, Zeta, Theta, Cyrus, Silas, Kane, Fenix, Astrophel, Jupiter, and Iota

A lot, I know. Cyrus, Silas, Kane, and Fenix have only been placed in my care for a day. Pantalone took them from me a very long time ago, to put it simply. However he’s been doing some incredibly awful things recently (will not disclose details for the sake of our privacy) so I’ve taken them back into my care. I know it’s a lot to deal with but I’m trying my best, for their sake.

Also, Popee is dating my daughter, Koda! (I have permission to say this online)
I’m very happy for them.

And also, Tartaglia had a little gender crisis. She’s now using he/she pronouns.
And Alhaitham got engaged to his sourcemate in another system, Kaveh!

So mostly good updates at the moment. Things are incredibly messy and horrifying today, but it’s being sorted out.

-Dottore

So, hello, Dreamwidth. If anyone actually looks at our profile, then you may recognize me, as my name has been mentioned quite a few times. I want to make this post to clarify some things.

First of all, yes, I know, I'm a very bad person. I've done many things that I regret. I'm making amends and such for what I've done, as much as I can. For this, I have many people to thank, such as Scara, as well as one of his headmates, and of course, my own headmates.

Second of all, I am getting better. Much better, in fact. When I came here, I almost immediately got into an argument with Scara. From that point on, the arguments continued every time I fronted. But, eventually, I apologized. i won't get into the details, but I started to feel an immense amount of guilt for my deeds. We've become almost friends now? And I've even gotten a very very lovely boyfriend, Baizhu, although he's in another system. Kind of funny that there's more than one genshin-fictive relationship. Anyway.

I am, unsurprisingly, HEAVILY autistic and my main hyperfixation (possibly my only one as of right now?) is Victorian medicine. I may post on here about it often, if I choose to do so.

Oh well. That's really all I wanted to say; I just didn't want anybody getting the impression that I'm still actively being a shitty person. I'm not, I'm trying very very hard to be better.

-Dottore

So, we have three littles in our system; all three are Dottore's clones, and they're all 6-7 years old. These littles are:

Kane, segment 1A, age 7
Cyrus, segment 1B (I believe he's 1B?), age 7
Fenix, segment 1D, age 6


We had some events take place that I won't be discussing here, as it's personal, but long story short, Pantalone ended up taking in almost all of the clones (that reminds me, I need to make a post about them since there's more of them now.) And he's adopted Kane and Cyrus; Fenix has only been here for a few days, and is deciding if he wants to stay with Pantalone or not, but we believe he most likely will.

Anyway, Pantalone is a very good father to them! Last night he decided to clean out our closet and make it a safespace for his sons; he put up some lights, and put pillows, blankets, and stuffed animals around, and used one of our oil diffusers in there just to make it smell nice (and because it has this weirdly calming humming sound.) He also put a little basket in there with some books, toys,and our spare noise-cancelling headphones. The only problem is that it gets VERY hot in there, VERY quickly. But, good news! We talked to Max's mom, and today she's going to bring back this little plug-in fan from her desk since she doesn't use it anymore.


Last night, Kane fronted for some time, and ended up sleeping in the closet despite how hot it got in there. He actually had a very good night; one of our friends in another system (who I'll call X just for privacy) helped out and talked to Kane for the night, and ended up being very helpful! He isn't going to see this but thank you!!!

Kane also found a cute show he likes, it seems like it could be a really good show for children (whether it be a physical outer-world child, a little, or an age-regression situation) It's on Netflix and it's called City of Ghosts! Definitely a good way to keep kids entertained, and it also has a lot of Asian-American representation, as well as a character who openly uses They/Them and mentions it! It's also just a good way to teach kids a lot of stuff, especially about other cultures and things like that. Plus, it's just a cute show overall.

Overall, last night was a success! I think that's the first time Kane's come out for a full night in a while, so I'm glad everything went smoothly.

-Alhaitham