frontstuck (possibly) and a rant about some stuff.

I've been fronting almost constantly for like a week? Two weeks? Honestly I cant tell anymore, which I'll admit isnt great. It's been rough for me, too. Only a couple days ago I realized I may or may not(to put it simply,) have daddy issues, with him abandoning me for most of my life in my source (and when he is there... If you've watched my source, you know what he's like.) I'm mostly surprised that I JUST realized it, after being here almost for an entire year.
That's another thing that I guess has been on my mind. I've been in the system for almost a YEAR. 365 days. 8760 hours. also apparently 3.154e+7 seconds, whatever that even means?? I'm glad that I'm here, but it's kind of crazy. I was one of the first alters to form after Max realized there was any alters at all. I was one of the first of my original 'group' of alters, and now I'm the last left of that group. Somehow all of them went dormant, or the system reset, something like that; we still don't really know. And I went dormant too, but after ONE day of dormancy, I somehow managed to come back. I'm glad to still, you know, EXIST, but at the same time all of the others were gone and Max & I had to rebuild everything. That was a month ago, and I try not to be super obvious about it, but I'm still grieving. It's hard. It's hard to lose everyone, even yourself, and then by some miracle or something come back and find nothing. A wasteland. A wasteland with nobody else, nobody but your host. Your creator, you could say.

I don't know. This kind of got heavy, sorry if you read this stuff. That's all.

-Popee